It's been a long time since I last wrote on this journal. Many things have happened since I wrote about the last entry, som of them pretty important, some of them not that much. Maybe I should have written something earlier, but I didn't have the time, or the need, to do it. But now I have the feeling... The need... to write something.

Soon after my last entry, I was able to get back to Ahnonay. It wasn't there when I went back to the cavern after all those years, but it was good to walk on those fake worlds again. Thanks to some fellow explorers, I was able to get the code for another of Yeesha's recorded messages. After listening to it, I was teleported to K'veer.

I had read a few things about the palace at K'veer, but I couldn't just imagine how beatiful it was. The window over the lake, the halls full of colour, like a house designed by Gaudi... And feeling the weight of time when I first stepped into Atrus' prison. Somehow, it felt like all around me, history was being written and I was just outside, watching it being written. But as the song says: "while we think we are witness, we are part of the scene", and even if I didn't take a big part of this scene, soon I would see that the song was, in fact, correct.

It would be later on that same K'veer that I would stay in Atrus' prison with a few others, with some other people staying at the palace outside, listening to the news that the Bahro had come to the city, and were walking around. A few people there had friends sending KI-shots of the Bahro. There was a feeling of foreboding, as we sat there waiting for some more news. When my other duties called me, I went back to my Relto, with the thought that the war would finally get to us. I was worried about it, as I'm sure most of the people were.

Yeesha came. She talked to the people who stayed at K'veer. As far as I know, she is the main reason that now the Bahro have left... For the time being.

Right now, I'm sitting in K'veer, in Atrus' prison, alone once again. There's still people in the cavern, thought there aren't as many as it used to be. That, or maybe I'm just staying away too much time. Sitting here reminds me of those hours, talking, wondering what would happen next. And the question still remains. For it is clear that this place is no longer safe. Not for us explorers, or for anyone. Many think of the city of D'ni as their home, thought I see it more like one of the links to my homeworld (or should I say homeage?). Anyway, it's hard to think that the place we thought was safe isn't anymore. We need a new home. And we need to find it by ourselves.

The journey that ended here, in front of the book now standing on a pillar, the book of Myst, has turned into the beginning of another journey. And this one... This one I'll make it on my own.

For it may have been Yeesha's call what brought me here... But it'll be my soul's call what guides me in the next journey.

I've been away for some time. A friend of mine was worried about his father and a little depressed, and I went back to be with him and help him. I got a cold while I was back there, and I had a nasty week. I think I'm completly recovered from it. Things seem to be getting messier in my country. At this rate, it won't matter where I go, I'll end up in the middle of a war. Stupid politicians... I hope we explorers can do something better for the Cave, or for whatever place we go to, if the Cave ends up being too dangerous for us. Everything seems to be going down the lane towards chaos.

I returned to find out that Cate had just resigned from her position as the boss of the DRC. Nearly fell over manga-style when I read the KI-mail. Well, I can't say I'm sad, I didn't even meet the lady, but what I heard and read was not... much to my liking. Still, I have the feeling, and I'm not the only one, that this isn't the last we hear about her. Still, this is a new and sudden change in the situation. I wonder what will happen next... I managed to get a glimpse of Reteltee earlier, just when he was finishing talking about what had happened. I had a chat with a few of the explorers there after he left, mostly about what had happened. I think the general feeling is that it's time for us the explorers to take a more active part in the Cave, via the Guilds. I'm somewhat wary, though. As I told Ar'agon, we are the ones that make the Guilds, and we can make them good or bad. Maybe it's my lack of confidence in the general good will of the human race what makes me wary, but still... And also, I can't help replaying Watson's words over and over in my head.

I just returned and I already need a break.

I was invited to a chill party taking place at Minkata, and the truth it was amazing. The music was great (I should congratulate the DJ for his great work), and I had a lot of fun. I think the best part was when we decided to see how many of us could fit into the nearest kiva. It's bigger than I first thought. I must say it's been a long time since I had so much fun, and it was a sad thing I had to go earlier. But I had to do some things, and duty comes before pleasure.

Later, I paid a visit to Ae'gura. When I went back to Relto, I began thinking about the situation we are living with the Bahro war. It's something I don't want to think about much, because there's not much I can do about it right now, besides waiting and be prepared for whatever happens. But I couldn't help to think that the idea I had about the Bahro has changed a bit these past two months. When I heard Yeesha's messages, I thought of the Bahro as good, kind sentient creatures wrongfully enslaved. Helping them was... Well, it was something it had to be done. And that's something I still belive in. Even if my views of the Bahro have changed, having them as slaves is not good. But because of what Yeesha said, I thought they were free of some human traits that I depise. Now, I just can't help comparing the violent Bahro to some of my fellow countrymen, carrying a grudge against something that happened nearly a century ago, for a twisted sense of... justice? vengeance? Whatever it is, now I think the Bahro are... less perfect, more human-like, but not in the sense I would like to say that. I can understand that they were hurt and angry. I would be. But in some way I hoped they would made the choice of living and letting live. The good choice. I hoped they would be better than us.

I'm a bit dissapointed.

Well, I suppose this is what freedom is about, being able to choose between the good choice and the bad choice, and accepting the consecuences. I just hope that there's an end to all this nonsense soon. Because I think they're going to find soon that wars bring nothing but pain to all those that are a part of them, had they joined it willingly or not.

It's been a long time since I last visited Eder Tsogal. I like the place a lot, it's very relaxing, even it's a bit small compared to Gira or Kemo. It somehows reminds me of a house my parents had in a little town not far from the city. It had this enormous terrain that was full of grass that nearly reached the knees. Anyway, it was nice walking around and jumping from rock to rock, like I was a little kid. It helped me to forget some nasty things that have been bothering me for the past few days. Some people, really... But I shouldn't think about it now. Anyway, nice visit to one of my favourite Ages.

Also, this time, I managed to get to the big island away from my Relto... Took a pretty KI shot of the main island. I wonder if it would be possible to transfer those shots to my computer...

It seems I'm so engrosed with my return to the Cavern (now a little more alive, or it should be if I didn't was GTD +1 and ended up linking in when there's nearly noone there) that I decided to start a journal.

To many things have happened while I was away. I've been getting tid-bits of information while I was able, before my father had that great idea of his. Talking about them right now doesn't seem right, since there's plenty of people who know a lot more than I, and if I started, probably I wouldn't end until tomorrow evening... And I have a meeting to attend. Let's just say I miss table role-game after two years without even throwing a single dice.

Something that I've observed, thought, is that the Spanish community on D'ni is DEAD. Completly, absolutely dead. I think there were a few of my fellow countrymen around, but it seems they left to never return. It's a bid sad, since it seems that the first place to turn to when I was back was with someone who spoke my mother language, but I'm not lucky enough. Oh, well.

I'm pretty interested in the Job Fair that will take place on November 3rd. I would like to be part of a group. I helped Sharaya translating the add to Spanish, after I recovered from the "Great Idea", as I shall call it from now on. Anyway, I would like to join a group. I'm afraid I don't have the skill to join any of the Guilds that have started, but maybe someone would need someone like me. Oh, well, at least it will be fun, and I won't have to make anything strange to get to know the groups. I'm too sensible to lack of sleep -_-U

Well, I hope I have more interesting and new things to speak about next time.